Scarlet POV

  Few days ago we discovered that pathum has OCD . that he is diagonised with it and I did everything possible to find out ways to clear him out of it, I found ways and among them is therapy , he needs therapy and he states that I am his best therapist and that as long as I am with him he will be fine no matter what. Thats no true, eventhough he claims that I do a good job helping him , I really don’t I only mess things up at sometimes but he still insist that as long as I am with him things shall be good.

  God is with him , I know he don’t go to church or anything but he still prays at night and most importantly believes in me, he might not have faith in god but he do have faith in me. Thats all that matter.

  Please dear lord help him fight this obsessive compulsive disorder. Please eliminate that disease from him. Free him and guide him for the righteous of paths and give him his happiness. I know he claim his happiness is me but still I think by being free from this disorder will mean the world for him. Ploease I beg you my lord.

  I got up from my bed and texted him but he didn’t responded back as soon as I expected him to . I don’t know why but it has been 30 minutes since I texted him but there is no response I tried to call but there was no response. Right an hour later,

  Pathum ; hey sorry I was late.

  Scarlet ; is everything alright sweetie?

  Pathum ; no sweetie I had an accident.

  Scarlet ; whats wrong?

  Pathum ; this freaking washing sweetie

  Scarlet ; please tell me , I will help you

  Pathum ; I got contact with someone else, it was an accident, I was just moving by and he was carrying the woods and I contacted his back there were some sweat in his back disgusting I got contact with them , I am so sick , I washed my hands many times I washed hands I don’t know, like 1hour 20 minutes , imagine and 1 hour 20 minutes washing hands from 3 pm to 4 : 20 p.m and then I decided to go to bath and thats why it took me so late to comeback.

  Scarlet; sweetie aint those sweat going to hurt you. You don’t have to be scared, you washed them perfectly fine.

  Pathum ; I am sick and tired and when I mean sick I really am sick if you look at my hands you will see how much I suffered, my hands one colour and my body another colour, why do I have to suffer like this sweetie? What crime have I done? Please tell god I cant do this anymore.

  Scarlet ; sweetie I am so sorry I wish I could be there for you, if I was there nothing bad would happen to you, but unfortunately our lives are separated.

  Pathum ; we will soon be together, I will pass my exam and get a scholarship and we shall be good. All our problems will go away.

  I hope that day be any sooner, I cant wait I am very impatient. I cant wait to wrap my arms around him and cuddle, thats all I want , all my problems will go away and I will be fine.

  Scarlet : I can’t wait until that day.

  Pathum : Me either!

  Scarlet : God thinking about that moment brings goosebumps.

  Pathum : Do you know what’s the first thing I would do when we meet?

  Scarlet : Kiss me?

  Pathum : Kiss your forehead.

  Scarlet : Aww! How sweet!

  Pathum : What would you do when we meet?

  Scarlet : Kick your balls.

  Pathum : OMG what the heavens! What did I do to deserve that?

  Scarlet : For torturing me at sleepless nights, for that hot body of yours, for the distance between us and many more.

  Pathum : Honestly tell me what’s the first thing you would do when our eyes met?

  Scarlet : I have no idea Pathum. I might pass out, who knows.

  Pathum : For god sake and being realistic, I think I would be the one to pass out because that has happened to me in my past.

  Scarlet : You never told me.

  Pathum : It was in 2018 december.

  Scarlet : What was the event? Meeting your crush?

  Pathum : My exam, my O/LEVEL exam.

  Scarlet : Oh interesting, but what is O/level ?

  Pathum : Oh I got some explaining to do, give me a minute.

  Scarlet : Hehe

  Paathum : So in Sri lanka there are few common exams which every student who does their studies related to the local syllabus face. One of them is O/level exam which is written by students of grade 11, o/level stands for ordinary level exam. Its the first majoy exam. And there are nine subjects and if we pass them on a high note we can enter into a good school. So I wrote my exam back in 2018 december. And my scores are A4,B3 &C3 for the 9 subjects. I hope you know what A,b ,c stands for. Above 75 marks is an A pass, above 65 marks is a B pass and above 55 is a C pass. So yeah that’s the story. I faced the exam and did it successfully.

  But I just moved out of the main topic so let me get back into the real conversation. I told you I passed out on the first day right? Yes I did. The first day of my O/level exam. Well I will explain what happened. So as you know my school or my first school was a private school and the general common exams are not held in private schools so we have to transfer to the nearest school which we did. So it was around I dunno like 7 A.m and I walked with my mother my friends had already arrived and also there were other students from other private schools and the students of that school as well. The place was crowded with students and parents. Most boys were alone unlike me, since I am a baby my mother had to accompany me.

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  So once we arrived there I didn’t spoke any word with anyone just smiled I guess. My former best friend even laughed at me and said look at you, you look scared. It was true I was scared because eventhough I studied I was not confident about it. After few minutes of arrival I started to walk but I felt my body not responding to me, I tried to walk left but my body drifted towards the right, realising something wrong I immediately grabbed mom’s hand and told her what’s wrong and soon we walked away from that spot and walked towards the vehicle which took us, the driver was a uncle we know so he was friendsly and helped us. I ate string hoppers and slowly regained my strength and it subsided . So that’s my story of passing out. You have to remember I walked the distance from where I was to where to vehicle was grabbing mom’s hand and eventhough I had her arm I was still shaking and floating.

  Scarlet : You are such a story teller.

  Pathum : Thanks sweetie.

  Scarlet : So how was the exam? What was the subject the first day?

  Pathum : Religion and for me it was Buddhism. And it was worst that I anticipated.

  Scarlet : OMG why?

  Pathum : Becuase I messed it up and I thought I would’nt even get a S pass, which is a pass given for above 35 marks,which is the lowest grade.

  Scarlet : And what did you got?

  Pathum : Guess! Hehe

  Scarlet : I have no idea but since you mentioned your cute ‘hehe’ i supposed it was a good mark despite you panicking.

  Pathum : True! Very true!

  Scarlet : Yeah hoo!! What was it?

  Pathum : A freaking ‘A’ pass, which means above 75 marks. I was totally flabbergasted when the results came out, I couldn’nt believe my eyes hehe.

  Scarlet : Wow! Congratulations!

  Pathum : Thanks sweetie!

  Scarlet : You amazing you know that?

  Pathum : Not as much as you though. Hehe !!

  Scarlet : Pathum!! Stop giving me credits.

  Pathum : THat would be on the day the I am lying on a casket.

  Scarlet : I don’t want to see you there, I would never, I could never look down at you.

  Pathum : Don’t you worry about such, I would never leave you alone.

  Scarlet : I could never live without you.

  Pathum : Eventhough I wouldn’t be there physically, I will always be there with you spiritually. I mean forever in your heart wouldn’t I right?!

  Scarlet : I know sweetheart! I know!!

  Pathum : Alongside my children, our children.

  Scarlet : Pathum don’t make me emotional.

  Pathum : Hehe

  Scarlet : Please I cannot do this.

  Scarlet don’t start it, for god sake don’t cry

  Pathum : I am sorry did I do something wrong? I am sorry did I made you sad? I was just saying what I felt, what I think necessary. Oneday we all have to go and if I am the one to go first I want you to remember that I love you so much and I regret nothing that I committed for you and I am glad of my commitments and would do them again if need come for you. And if we are both lucky then we would have a precious angel who would resemble his/her mother and I am pretty sure that that angel will love you so much and I am so sure that you’ll take good care of her/him.

  Scarlet : But nooo….

  Pathum : I have to say something important, it just came into my mind.

  Scarlet : Pathum I don’t want to cry more.

  Pathum : I want you to know that I love you and that it is the truth. But you need to remember that I loved you, I fell first in love with your heart not your body. And forever I will cherish the taste of your heart. So the thing I wanted to tell you is if I suddenly get silent or stop texting you, just remember that it only means one thing.

  Scarlet : And that is…

  Pathum : That I am forever gone (physically).

  Scarlet : I just hope I’ll be the first to go so that I would’nt have to bear that burden.

  Pathum : So you fine with me suffering from your absence?

  Scarlet : Pathum that’s not what I meant

  Pathum : I know! I know!

  Scarlet : ??

  Pathum : Please if I am gone before we could ever meet just forget me and live a happy life with whoever your heart desires.

  Scarlet : Pathum there’s only one person that my heart desires and it’s you sweetheart.

  Pathum : But sweetie you cannot waste your life just because you loved me.

  Scarlet : What would you do if I am gone before we meet?

  Pathum : Most likely to never marry anyone, I am hundred percent sure that I would not love someone else. Even if my heart desires for another I would not let that happen.

  Scarlet : But that’s not fair.

  Pathum : That’s called loyalty my dear, I am loyal to my wife. Yes we are currently not married but you know the obvious thing we would do once we met, we would get married. Its just we are not married documentarily, it's just we haven’t signed the marriage documents yet but our hearts have already intertwined.

  Scarlet : What if we get to marry and then I have to go

  Pathum : I would not marry any other darling.

  Scarlet : Why not?

  Pathum : Because you never left me I mean you didn’t dump me or abandoned me. You understand?

  Scarlet : I do. You are my PP.

  Pathum : Huh! Poop party?

  Scarlet : Precious Pathum!

  Shouldn’t he sleep already?

  Scarlet: You need to sleep now sweetie.

  Pathum : But..

  Scarlet : No buts…

  Pathum : ??

  Scarlet : Sweet dreams sweetie!

  Pathum : Read ‘Anna Karenina’ for me.

  Scarlet : I will.

  He didn’t went to sleep right away, it was contest of emojis he poured my screen with those favourite emojis of his. That cry emoji. I feel pity for him, the fact his favourite emoji is a sad one. That doesn’t matter, I will keep company and make him happy.

  After chores I sat with Mazie, playing around but my mind was thinking about him , about his health condition, he is going through a lot and someone needs to help him, because he is suffering, I cannot watch him suffer like this, my mom and sister still have their negative opinion about him, they still think I am not good enough, that he is not the right one and that I am making a big mistake going against god, I don’t understand these people why cant they see that I am so happy?

  I am a happy person that is all that matters when it comes to picking the right person and they still complain he needs to grow up and that he cannot handle life, I had to do chores alone my sister aint helping me with them and mom insisted that I must do them as soon as possible, they are taking every step to keep me away from my boy, but they don’t understand that no matter how much they try to keep me away from him It doesnt matter I and pathum are forever lovers we are meant to be with each other and if that means I have to go against my own family yes I will gladly choose it. My family always treated me wrong they always had Abigail as the crowned daughter and me as the troubled kid, they loved her more than they did for me it is fine, what is there love compared to Pathum’s love, my boy love me more than they ever could, I love him and he love me and we are forever one unit. I know I have god’s favour god’s blessings.

  God will always give his love and protection, I know my family wont ever love him like I want them to but thats okay I don’t need them anyway, I can love my boy as much as I want him.

  “ whatcha thinking about ?’’ Abigail asked me taking a seat near me.

  ‘’ oh nothing, it doesnt matter anyway,’’

  ‘’ oh bet its him.’’ she looked closely at me

  ‘’ why do you guys hate him, he is not a bad person.’’ tears fill my eyes.

  ‘’ may not be a bad person but he is definitely not the right person for you.’’ she stood with her idea, while tears cascaded down through my cheeks, the mention of such words at him melt me.

  ‘’ for god’s sake stop.. please love him he is the right person I don’t understand whats so wrong about him. Why cant you both love him ?’’ I said while tears started flowing.

  ‘’ there is no point talking with you .’’ she left with that.

  I don’t understand whats wrong with them.

  Why can’t they see him for who he is. What’s the point in all these rebellious behaviours?

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