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  Zoe wiggled her feet in the air as she sat on the examination table. She looked to her side and saw Gym Bro calmly scrolling on his phone while sitting in the chair beside her. Zoe gnced at the door again. She knew it was a little silly to feel this nervous since it was only the consultation. It’s not like they were going to wheel her into surgery today.

  The door opening startled Zoe and made her heart skip a beat. The doctor entered the room. “Hello there Zoe,” he said as he extended his hand. Zoe shook it gently. “Hi,” she replied. The doctor turned to Gym Bro and shook hands. “Kevin,” Gym Bro introduced himself, “Zoe’s boyfriend.”

  “Nice to meet you. I’m Doctor Kelly.” He sat down and looked at a chart in his hands. “So, Zoe,” Doctor Kelly started, “we’re here for a consultation for surgery. What procedure are you interested in?” Zoe was caught off guard. Wasn’t the doctor supposed to already know why she was here? Was this is a test? Could she fail?

  “Um,” Zoe said, “I wanted liposuction. But I want some of the fat to be put in my boobs.” Doctor Kelly nodded his head and checked off some boxes on his sheet. “What areas did you want liposuction from?” Zoe gnced over at Gym Bro. He nodded his head reassuringly.

  Zoe put a smile on her face and replied, “My belly. I want to have more curves.” Doctor Kelly made some notes on his sheet and put the board down. “Great, then I’ll take a look at the areas and tell you what I think is possible. Your boyfriend can wait outside the room if you’d like.” Zoe shook her head. “No, it’s fine. I want him here.” She smiled at Gym Bro.

  Doctor Kelly scooted back in his rolling chair to make room for Zoe to scoot off the examination table. She wondered what the point of that table was if she had to stand on the ground anyways. Zoe removed the thin cloth gown the nurse had given her and nervously stood mostly naked as the doctor examined her body.

  Doctor Kelly moved pulled some gloves out of his coat pocket and pulled them on. “I’m going to touch you and check some areas, okay?” he said. Zoe nodded her head. “Okay.” Doctor Kelly pinched at Zoe’s belly in a few different areas.

  He said, “For the best-looking results, I suggest doing a full three-sixty around the midsection. We’ll focus on the sides here to create a dramatic, curvy look, and then smooth things out on the front and back so it looks natural. You’ve got plenty of subcutaneous fat, but not much visceral fat. Go ahead and flex your abs for me. Suck in.”

  Zoe complied. Doctor Kelly pinched again in some of the areas. He grabbed one area and jiggled it around a little. “See that?” he asked looking up at Zoe’s face. “Mhmm,” she replied. Doctor Kelly said, “Everything I’m able to pinch, grab, and jiggle can be removed. I can’t get any of the visceral fat because that’s underneath the muscle yer.”

  He let go of Zoe and scooted back over to where he pced his notes. He pulled off his left glove and grabbed his pen to mark some areas on the paper. He asked, “What is your diet normally like? Plenty of fruits and vegetables?” Zoe nodded enthusiastically. “Yes,” she said, “Every day. But I also eat a lot of meat, rice, and potatoes. And I drink a protein shake every day because I exercise five days a week.”

  Zoe thought she could see a slight smile on Doctor Kelly’s face. Whatever test he was giving her, it seemed like she was doing well. She took a moment to throw a grin over at Gym Bro. He looked so focused right now.

  Doctor Kelly said, “That’s fantastic to hear. I will crify that liposuction is not a weight loss surgery. Especially with the fat transfer, so let’s talk about that.” He put down his notes and scooted back over to Zoe. He continued, “I will use my tools to make small incisions and suck the fat out. Then I purify it and isote the best fat for the transpnt.”

  He moved his hand to point underneath Zoe’s breasts. He continued, “Then I will make very small incisions here and here to insert a cannu to inject fat into your breasts. It’s important there is plenty of healthy fat for the transpnted fat to connect with and form a blood supply for the best chance at survival. I don’t think that will be a problem for you.” Zoe chuckled.

  Gym Bro cut in, “Is there a limit to how much you can put in at one time? Zoe is a bit shy, but she’s always talking about wanting to make her boobs as big as possible.” Zoe flinched. She was supposed to be the one asking questions, but she’d gotten lost listening to Doctor Kelly’s expnation. She pulled up her mental checklist that she and Gym Bro went over yesterday.

  “Oh yeah,” Zoe said, “I wasn’t sure if you only took out a certain amount and only put in a certain amount or if we needed to pay extra for more.” Doctor Kelly waved his hand dismissively. “For the liposuction, I can’t take out everything because you need a yer of fat for the skin to be healthy and look smooth and young. However, you have plenty of extra fat that I can suck out, so you will see a very dramatic change.”

  He continued, “There is a limit for what I can put back in based on how much of the suctioned fat survives the process, but I use a smaller cannu and a new technique that use highly compressed air that is much better than older techniques. When it comes to the transfer, I will put as much in as I think is reasonable. I have to consider that I can’t put too much pressure on the tissue because the pressure can cause the transpnted fat cells to die and that adds extra risk after the procedure. Normally, you can expect one to two cup sizes from the transpnt after the healing period is over. However, given the great environment and your healthy lifestyle, I think we can expect the higher end.”

  Zoe blinked her eyes and tried to process all the doctor’s words while holding onto her question list. She felt someone tap her arm and looked over to see Gym Bro holding up his phone. “Don’t worry babe,” he said, “I’m taking notes.” Zoe felt so relieved. She smiled. “Oh, okay then,” she said.

  “Next question.” Zoe turned slightly and lifted her arm. She pulled at the skin around her armpit. “Is it possible to get rid of this stuff too? I have trouble finding bras that fit well without digging into me.” Doctor Kelly looked at the areas Zoe gestured to and pulled at her skin some more.

  “We can definitely tighten some of those areas with liposuction. Pulling from those areas would also create a dramatic effect with the final result,” he said. Zoe smiled. This was perfect. This is exactly what Gym Bro was hoping the doctor would say. Zoe said, “Is it too te to add that on too? The extra lipo.”

  Doctor Kelly responded, “Do you want to change the area or do it in addition to the abdomen?”

  “Both. I want both.”

  Doctor Kelly said, “The new area would be an additional charge. Are you paying through financing?” Zoe shook her head. “No, I have cash.” Gym Bro spoke up, “She means that we’re paying with a credit card, but we already have the cash to pay off the card immediately. How much are the extra areas?”

  Doctor Kelly made a weird face. “I don’t know the exact numbers. There’s the set cost of the surgery fee, anesthesia, and the basic procedure. Then each area of liposuction has a different number depending on the pcement on the body I have to suction from. My wife, at the front desk, she has all of that information.” He ended with a chuckle. Gym Bro ughed at the same time. Zoe wasn’t sure what the joke was.

  Gym Bro said, “We’re not worried about the price. Is there a risk to adding more areas of the body? Will it slow down her healing?” Zoe flinched again. She kept letting her mind wander and dropping the ball with the questions they practiced.

  Doctor Kelly looked at Zoe and said, “With the abdomen three-sixty and the armpit area you should be fine.” Gym Bro asked, “Is the upper back part of the armpit?” He extended his arm and point at part of Zoe’s back. Doctor Kelly leaned over. “No,” he said, “that would count as a separate area.” Gym Bro nodded his head and made some notes.

  Doctor Kelly said, “You guys can discuss the different prices with my wife when you schedule the surgery date. If there’s a problem with the areas you choose, we will call or email you and we can discuss again. Oh, sorry dear, you can put your gown back on now.” He gestured at Zoe. She smiled nervously and slid the gown back over her shoulders.

  “Okay,” the doctor said, “I think that’s everything I needed to ask and go over with you Zoe. Do you have any more questions for me?” Zoe scanned her mental list, but came up empty. She looked at Gym Bro. “No, I think that’s everything,” she said. Gym Bro nodded. Zoe smiled. She did a good job.

  “Yes,” she said looking at the doctor, “That’s everything. Thank you very much. I’m really excited.” Doctor Kelly nodded his head and made some final notes. “I’m excited for you. You’ve had wonderful success with the hormones, but I know the midsection can always be a little stubborn. I’m confident we can give you some beautiful, natural-looking curves no problem.”

  Zoe scrunched her face. Hormones?

  Doctor Kelly continued, “You can go back to the front desk and schedule the surgery date with her. She’ll also give you a packet that gives you important things to have done in the weeks leading up to surgery, the night before surgery, and the weeks after surgery for recovery. I’ll call you one more time when we get closer to the date to make sure you’re clear on everything.”

  He extended his arm out and shook hands with Zoe and Gym Bro once again. Zoe felt his mind buzzing. “Um, doctor,” she said. The doctor stopped and looked back. What was Zoe thinking? What were they doing? “Um,” they said again, “I’m sorry, but I’m a little confused about something you said.”

  “Yes?”

  Zoe struggled to get the words out of her mouth. Her brain felt all slow. They said, “You mentioned something about hormones changing my body? I’m not sure what you’re talking about.”

  Doctor Kelly looked confused. He said, “Your hormone therapy treatment. For being transgender.” He looked down at his chart and flipped through the pages. He nodded his head, “Yes, you wrote that you’re currently taking estradiol, bicalutamide, and progesterone.”

  Zoe’s mind was really sparking now. They’d let Gym Bro fill out the paperwork since he knew all of their medical information anyways. Zoe was familiar with taking bicalutamide to help lower her testosterone, but she didn’t know what those other two drugs were. Doctor Kelly continued, “Are you concerned about needing to stop the hormones before surgery? I know a lot of pces recommend it, but I’ve never seen an increase in risk with my patients. I thought that’s why you picked my clinic; because of my experience with transgender patients.”

  Zoe’s mind twitched again. That word. Why was it always that word?

  Gym Bro coughed. “Hey doc, I think you missed a note on that sheet.” Doctor Kelly looked down and read a little further. His eyes widened. “Oh, oh my.” He looked up at Zoe. “I’m so sorry my dear, I didn’t read that part.” Zoe still wasn’t sure what was happening. Doctor Kelly continued, “I’m very sorry for my comments. I fully understand the situation now.”

  Zoe felt Gym Bro take his hand. He looked over in a haze. Gym Bro gave them a reassuring squeeze. Gym Bro looked at the doctor and said, “It’s okay. She’ll be fine. I’m sure she would still love to go through the surgery with you.” Doctor Kelly nodded his head and stepped over to Zoe.

  He bowed his head. “Once again, I am truly sorry for what I said. I want you to know that it had nothing to do with how you look or how you acted.” Zoe wasn’t sure what was going on, but it seemed like everything was okay now. She wanted this awkwardness to be over with. “It’s okay,” she said, “I’m really okay. It’s no big deal.”

  In the car, Zoe pulled at their hair absentmindedly. Gym Bro said, “I think that went really well. And we got really lucky with the surgery date being so soon. I think we should do some more photo shoots and have Jack make your boobs look slightly rger in post. Then you can wear a corset and a push-up bra on stream for the next few weeks to help sell the illusion that it’s all natural, gradual changes. Which, if you think about it, it’s all still your tissue, you know? And you’ve shown that you can work plenty hard to lose or gain weight. The surgery is helping you along, you know?”

  Zoe had this feeling that being transgender was exactly what they weren’t. Being transgender was this bad thing. Transgender people were bad people. So why did people keep calling them transgender? They weren’t like Alice.

  Gym Bro continued, “We’ll wait for two months or so before starting to film content for the Onlyfans. That way any scars shouldn’t be too obvious. We can still do plenty of photo shoots with you in some amount of clothing and build a bit of a catalog. The pn is still to wait to announce the Onlyfans after we have at least three month’s worth of content ready.”

  Zoe kept thinking. Alice had pretended to be a woman to be their girlfriend before. And they were pretending to be a girlfriend now. They took money from men over the internet by selling them this fantasy of Zoe. If this still was a fantasy. Whoever they used to be was starting to feel more and more distant from real life.

  “Zoe?”

  Zoe blinked her eyes and looked over at Gym Bro. “What? Yes. I mean, sorry. I zoned out. What were we talking about?” Gym Bro smirked. “Don’t worry about it,” he said, “I don’t feel like repeating myself over and over.” Zoe felt their shoulders slump. “I’m sorry,” she said, “It’s just…” She stopped herself.

  “Just what?” Gym Bro asked.

  Zoe took a deep breath. “I’m sorry. I’m probably being stupid. I can’t stop thinking about the doctor calling me transgender. It was weird, right? And then he said I was taking hormones. Which, I know I’m taking the bica stuff, but that’s not hormones, you know? It’s basically anti-hormones because it’s helping stop my testosterone from being too high. And I’ve heard of the other stuff, I think, but I’m not taking it. So why would it be on my paperwork? And why did he call me transgender?”

  “Whoa, whoa,” Gym Bro interrupted, “take a breath babe.” Zoe stopped talking and took a deep breath. She didn’t feel much better. Gym Bro said, “I hear that you’re really confused, but there’s nothing to worry about.” He paused. They sat in silence for a few moments.

  Gym Bro started again, “I had to pick this doctor because I didn’t want any surprises in the surgery room. Imagine that. The guy is getting ready to make some girl even more beautiful and then, boom, she’s got a dick. Who know how he would react, you know?”

  Zoe had never thought of that. She knew firsthand how disturbing seeing a dick when you didn’t expect one could be. She stared straight ahead as the possibility fshed through her mind. She’d be on the table, completely helpless, having deceived yet another person. Except this time, the person had tools and could totally disfigure her body!

  Gym Bro continued, “I wrote a note that said you wanted to be treated like a normal woman. The dumbass didn’t read everything. I’m sorry about that babe.”

  “It wasn’t your fault,” Zoe replied, “Hopefully he’s better at surgery than reading.” Although, now that she thought about it, maybe it wasn’t the best idea to trust her body with a person who doesn’t pay attention to the small details. “Hey babe,” she said, “Maybe we should look for a different surgeon.”

  “What are you talking about?”

  “Well, it’s just that, if he missed that important detail, maybe it wouldn’t be such a great idea to trust him with my body, you know? Like, my life is going to be in his hands and what if he misses an artery or something.”

  “First of all, it’s a good thing if he misses an artery. Hitting means you could die. Second of all, I already paid the deposit today, so that’s all lost money if we switch now.”

  Zoe could hear the anger rising in Gym Bro’s tone. She needed to deescate quickly. “Oh, well, then I’m sure it’ll be fine.” She still felt a tension in the air. “I’m sure he’ll be great. You think so, so it’s a good decision.” Gym Bro grunted.

  They didn’t talk anymore until they got home. Zoe started getting out of the car when Gym Bro suddenly turned the key to restart the engine. He said, “I’m feeling sort of tense after today. Think I’m going to go to the gym and get an extra workout in.”

  “Oh.”

  “Yeah, see you ter.”

  Zoe barely shut the door before Gym Bro backed out of the driveway and drove off. He didn’t even go inside to grab his gym bag or change clothes. Zoe watched as he sped out of the neighborhood.

  “Stupid, stupid Zoe,” she said to herself as she walked inside. “Why did we have to go and bring up something stupid like that? Just because the doctor called us transgender.” She paused in the middle of the room. “Again.”

  Things felt a bit out of focus for a moment.

  Or a few moments?

  Josh widened his eyes and rubbed his temples. His body felt extra heavy. And dark? That didn’t make any sense; it was still the afternoon. She looked around the room. Head was feeling fuzzy again. Where was Gym Bro?

  Oh, right. They’d made him mad again.

  Josh felt sparks going off in his mind. Gym Bro was out of the house. Which meant he was alone. He had time. He rushed to Zoe’s room and dropped to the ground. He yanked the shark toy from under the bed and pulled out his phone. He gnced over at the door while waiting for the phone to power on. He really wished the door was able to lock from the inside just in case Gym Bro changed his mind and came home early.

  Finally, the phone was on. Josh opened up Discord and saw exactly what he was hoping to see. Alice had responded.

  BustBunny

  Life has been pretty wild the st several months. I got new responsibilities at work, I went on a vacation, I made new friends. How about you?

  The icon said she was still online. This was his chance. Josh quickly wrote a message back.

  Jawsh

  Alice!Hey!You there?

  The waiting was killing him. Was she actually online right now? Maybe she was away from her computer. Or phone. What time was it it Canada right now? Which part did she live in again?

  The bubbles popped up. Alice was here!

  BustBunny

  YesI’m here

  Jawsh

  Hi!Do you have time to talk right now?

  BustBunny

  Yeah.

  Josh stared his phone. He wasn’t sure where to start. He remembered conversations always flowing so naturally with Alice before. He knew it was always easy for him to talk with the Bang Gang as Zoe. The only time Josh said anything was to himself, so he was out of practice.

  BustBunny

  Did you want to talk about the breakup more?

  Leave it to Alice to save the conversation. Josh grinned to himself. His time as a girlfriend made him appreciate when someone else would take charge.

  Jawsh

  Only if it’s okay with you.

  BustBunny

  It’s okay. It’s pretty much the main reason I reached out. I said and did a lot of awful things to you, and I wanted to tell you how sorry I was for everything.

  Jawsh

  What? No. You did nothing wrong. I’m sorry for all the awful things I said to you that night. And the following week. And for all the weird videos and pictures. I’m really sorry Alice.

  BustBunny

  -nervous ugh- Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying it was all my fault.But, I’ve been able to really reflect over the past year or so and see the toxic elements I brought to our retionship. It sounds weird, but, you really helped me grow a lot. I guess. I was hoping that the experience helped you grow too? As a person I mean.

  Jawsh

  Yeah, totally! Like I said, I totally get how wrong I was to say those awful things. I mean, like, not that I said them, but that I thought them you know? And that I said them.I feel like I’m not making any sense

  BustBunny

  No, it makes sense. I appreciate it.

  Jawsh

  It sounds like you didn’t let my nastiness stop you though! You said work is different?

  BustBunny

  Yeah, it’s actually gotten a lot better. Weirdly enough, it got better because of some of the things that happened in our retionship.

  Jawsh

  Really?

  BustBunny

  Yeah…Maybe I’ll tell you about it some other time.

  Jawsh

  Oh. I get it.

  BustBunny

  No, its nothing. Actually, there’s something else I wanted to ask you about, but I’m worried it might be triggering because of some of the comments I made that night. About being transgender.

  Josh couldn’t believe his eyes. The word followed him wherever he went. But, he couldn’t let his hangup on the word drive another person away from him. Especially not when that would mean being all alone right now.

  Jawsh

  Go ahead and ask. I can handle it.

  BustBunny

  Well, I I guess, first of all: Do you have a sister? Or a female cousin that kind of looks like you?

  Jawsh

  Not that I know of…I was an only child, but my dad may have had other kids after leaving us.

  BustBunny

  That was when you were around ten or eleven though, so the age would be all wrong. And you’re sure about the cousin thing?

  Jawsh

  Yeah I’m sure. What’s this about?

  BustBunny

  I can’t think of a better way to ask this…Are you Zoe Bang?

  Josh stared at the screen with his mouth agape. This was unreal. It had to be a dream. He shook his head and blinked his eyes. He re-read Alice’s messages. Maybe he misunderstood what she was talking about. No, he was taking too long to respond. He needed to nip this in the bud quickly.

  Jawsh

  What? The streamer? No. -ughing- Why would you even think that?

  BustBunny

  For one thing, you know who I’m talking about. She’s been growing quickly, but she’s not a huge streamer.

  Jawsh

  I just looked her up to see who you were talking about -nervous ugh- You said she’s a streamer?

  BustBunny

  You needed to look up who Zoe Bang was to make sure you weren’t her?

  Jawsh

  No, I mean, I looked her up to see why you might think I could be her.

  BustBunny

  Oh…I wasn’t trying to be mean or imply anything. She’s super feminine and I wasn’t trying to say I think you definitely look like her. I mean, I don’t even know what you look like now. And I’m not saying you looked like her a year ago.

  Jawsh

  Of course not! I believe you.

  BustBunny

  Honestly, I thought the whole idea was crazy at first. But, the more I watched her streams, the more stuff I noticed. Her hair, her ugh, her favorite types of games, some of her mannerisms, her eyes…other features.

  Jawsh

  Do you watch her streams a lot?

  BustBunny

  At least a few times a week -nervous ugh- She’s pretty cool. She does the typical E-girl stuff like showing off her boobs, doing awesome makeup, and being super girly, but she also says and does things like a dude-bro sometimes.

  Jawsh

  I see…She sounds pretty cool. Maybe I should check her out.

  BustBunny

  I know you always liked big boobs -nervous ugh-On other people of course

  Jawsh

  Yeah, that’s me.

  BustBunny

  Not to pry but… how is that whole situation going?

  Jawsh

  Oh, yeah, it’s better.

  BustBunny

  Really! That’s great news. I’m really sorry about the misunderstanding.

  Jawsh

  No, no. I knew what I was getting into. It’s my fault.

  BustBunny

  I’m not trying to be condescending….but you really have changed.

  Jawsh

  What do you mean?

  BustBunny

  Normally, when we had a misunderstanding, you would get super defensive and let me take the bme for everything. But you keep apologizing. It’s nice.

  Jawsh

  I was a big jerk back then huh? - nervous ugh-

  BustBunny

  A little jerk maybe -wink- Plus, you’ve really gotten better with the gender stuff. Normally you would have been yelling about how you couldn’t be Zoe because you weren’t a girl. But you rolled with it.

  Josh smacked himself in the face. He’d gotten so used to being seen as a woman he totally forgot to point out that he couldn’t have been Zoe because he was a man. He felt a buzzing in his mind. Maybe they could use this.

  Jawsh

  I actually wanted to talk to you about something reted to that. About being transgender.

  BustBunny

  Oh?

  Jawsh

  Obviously I’m a man you know? But…people keep thinking I’m not. Because of the boobs. Probably.

  BustBunny

  I see. What’s your question?

  Josh stared at the screen.What was his question?

  He knew he got upset before when people thought he was transgender back when he was Josh. But he was Zoe now. He’d worked so hard to be Zoe. Maybe, he wanted to know why the doctor thought Zoe was transgender. But that would involve Josh admitting that he lied already. Again. His mind buzzed. He was always lying to people. He was lying to people every time he stepped outside as Zoe and pretended to be something he wasn’t.

  A thought ran across his mind that caused Josh to chuckle. Maybe the only real person he was lying to most days was himself. Josh wasn’t even his real name anymore. Sometimes he thought of Josh being past tense even when he was alone. Thousands of people knew about Zoe; her fans, her boyfriend. Nobody knew about Josh’s existence outside of himself and Gym Bro. The tter of which barely acknowledged Josh’s existence.

  “Alice knows,” a voice said in Josh’s mind.

  That was right. Alice only knew them as Josh. And Jen. They felt a smile creep onto their lips. They’d forgotten about being Jen. There was no space for him anymore with Zoe around all the time. There was barely any room for Josh.

  Something was telling them they were happy when Jen was around. They remembered being with Alice and smiling.

  Oh shit, Alice.

  Jawsh

  Hey!Sorry for not saying anything

  BustBunny

  It’s okay. I figured it’s a difficult thing to talk about. Are you okay?

  Jawsh

  Yeah, totally. I’m having trouble putting it into words. That’s all.

  BustBunny

  HmmIn a way, you are sort of going through the transgender experience, but in reverse? Sort of.

  Jawsh

  What do you mean?

  BustBunny

  Your body started growing parts and doing things that you didn’t want it to. People look at you as a gender you don’t see yourself as. It reminds me of when I was going through puberty. I didn’t have the words for what I was feeling, but I knew I didn’t like how people saw me and I didn’t like the changes going through my body. But, it seemed like that was what was supposed to happen. So…I just kept going along with things. I even did things to make myself more masculine like growing a beard and going to the gym to get wider shoulders. Lol. I wish I could go back in time and stop myself.

  Jawsh

  Didn’t you like being a man though?

  BustBunny

  Sort of. I liked parts of it. But I realized that I could still do some of those things as my true self. I thought I would need to completely change careers if I wanted to transition, but things worked out well enough. Changing legal documents is a hassle, but it’s much easier than I thought it would be. I guess what I’m saying is…don’t be afraid to assert who you really are. Even if your body and the world around you seems to be trying to make you something else.

  Jawsh

  You make it sound so easy.

  BustBunny

  It’s definitely simple, but I wouldn’t say it’s easy. Maybe you should talk to a professional about this.

  Jawsh

  You think I need a therapist

  BustBunny

  Not really…but I know how hard it can be to talk to new friends about this sort of thing. And, if I remember correctly, you don’t have a childhood friend like I did.

  Jawsh

  I’ve got a close friend! He’s this great guy I live with.

  Josh knew he couldn’t actually talk to Gym Bro about this subject without him getting angry. Especially ever since agreeing to be Zoe full-time. But Alice didn’t need to know how desperate of a situation he was in. Who would want to talk with a friendless loser?

  BustBunny

  Really? Well, I guess you could talk to him about it. If you guys live together, I’m guessing he knows about the gynecomastia and treats you like a guy anyways. You could talk to him about how you feel. But, like I said, you can always talk to a professional too. It’s sort of like paying a person to listen to you compin, but then they can also help you with advice.

  Jawsh

  Would you be willing to talk more? About this gender stuff.

  BustBunny

  Maybe…How about you talk it over with your roommate and then tell me how it goes?

  Jawsh

  Yeah! I’ll do it when he gets back home!

  BustBunny

  You don’t need to rush anything. -nervous ugh-

  Jawsh

  It’s no big deal. He’ll be getting back from the gym in an hour or so. I’ll talk to him and then message you tomorrow!

  BustBunny

  Okay -smile- I’ll talk to you tomorrow then.

  Josh watched Alice’s status change to offline. He could feel himself grinning as energy coursed through him. He’d pyed it off. He’d made successful contact with Alice. She was going to talk to him more tomorrow. All he had to do was tell Gym Bro how uncomfortable he felt all the time.

  Josh’s mood began to sink.

  He needed to tell Gym Bro how uncomfortable he felt all the time. With being Zoe. Being a woman. Lying to everyone.

  Josh walked over to the mirror and looked at Zoe’s reflection. He squeezed his eyes shut and shook his head. This needed to stop. If he was going to live as himself again, he needed to get used to seeing Josh in the mirror. He opened his eyes.

  Zoe was still there.

  Obviously there was a lot of work he needed to do before the talk. He went to the bathroom and wiped all of Zoe’s makeup from their face. If things went well, he wouldn’t need to do a whole routine just to go outside for short appointments. His mind buzzed.

  Of course, there was nothing wrong with maintaining their skin care routine. Tons of guys had great skin after all. Their goal was to look more masculine; not look ugly. His mind buzzed again. And he’d have to keep doing makeup for streams until he found a better job, but that wouldn’t be a big deal. It was all temporary.

  Josh returned to Zoe’s room with a fresh face and started looking through the closet. He needed an outfit that asserted his masculinity to Gym Bro during their conversation. Everything Zoe had screamed femininity. Josh could borrow some of Gym Bro’s clothes for the talk, but he didn’t want to look too ridiculous in an oversized outfit. A spark went off in Josh’s mind.

  He went to his dresser and pulled out a rge hoodie. He’d taken it from Gym Bro for undry and decided to keep it. He couldn’t remember why he choose to keep it instead of washing it, but he definitely remembered wearing it on occasion when he felt lonely. The rge size of the hoodie would also help hide Josh’s rgest contributor to his feminine appearance: his breasts.

  He grabbed one of the slightly smaller sports bras to help squeeze his chest down a little more. He took a look at himself in the mirror. If he hunched over a little it was hard to tell he was walking around with two massive knockers. Josh smiled to himself.

  Next step was the bottoms. He couldn’t wear a dress or skirt. Another spark went off in Josh’s mind. He should wear something that emphasized his bulge. He’d been squishing everything down and away for so long that he even forgot he had a penis most of the time. The only bottoms he had that were tight enough were shorts and leggings. All of his bikini bottoms and panties had the tucking capability and there was no way he could fit into any of Gym Bro’s boxers.

  Josh stripped out of his bottoms and felt the cool air of the house against his groin. He took a deep breath in and out. He tried a pair of tight gym shorts first. They definitely showed off his bulge even if said bulge was a bit smaller than Josh recalled. Something compelled him to take a moment to run his hands down his smooth legs. That’s when his next problem caught his eyes.

  His toenails were currently a bright pink color. Josh looked at his fingernails; also bright pink. He couldn’t project masculinity like this. He rushed over to the vanity and pulled out the nail polish remover. Something stopped him just as he was about to open the bottle.

  They’d only recently changed their nail color. Using the polish remover so soon would damage their nails. Their goal was to look more masculine; not hurt themselves.

  Josh put the bottle away and tried to think of a better solution. A spark went off in his head. He could simply paint his nails bck to cover up the pink polish. Bck was plenty manly. Except. Matching toenails and fingernails, even with bck nail polish, still seemed too feminine.

  Put socks on.

  That was a great idea. Josh got up from the vanity and went back to his dresser. He started sifting through the socks avaible to them. Too pink. Too many flowers. Too pastel. Ooh, cute pandas. Were cute pandas okay? Cute monkeys. Too pink again. Ah ha! Pin white socks.

  Josh pulled the white socks out and watched them unravel into their full length. That would be an issue. Still, Josh felt it deep in his gut that wearing thigh-high white socks was better than wearing the feminine colors. He slid the socks up his legs and looked in the mirror. He felt a smile form on his lips.

  This outfit was coming together pretty nicely. They looked cute. He turned around and pulled the edge of the hoodie up to look at their butt. He shook it a little and made it bounce like they’d been practicing on stream. That was so cool. He’d never been much of a dancer before, but he could pull off some pretty sexy moves now.

  He let the oversized hoodie fall back down. It was so rge and long that it covered up his shorts and made it look like Josh was only wearing a hoodie and thigh-high socks. The look was undeniably cute. In fact, if they applied a little blush, some lip tint, maybe a highlight in the eye, then this could be a cute look for “comfy style” photos for Zoe’s Instagram. Josh grabbed Zoe’s phone and made a quick note before snapping a couple photos.

  Something felt off.

  Right, the pn. They needed to be more masculine to talk things over about allowing Josh back in the house.

  Their head felt a bit fuzzy. It was a little difficult to breathe.

  Josh pulled the hoodie over his head and unzipped the sports bra. He felt the pressure on his chest release a bit. That was much better. He sat down on the bed and took a few deep breaths. He looked at Zoe’s phone. They probably still had time before Gym Bro returned. He could slide the sports bra and hoodie on at the st moment.

  Their goal was too look more masculine; not be uncomfortable.

  Josh fully removed the sports bra and returned to their bra drawers. He found one of his favorite bras and slid it on. It had the unfortunate side effect of emphasizing their breasts and forming a valley of cleavage, but it also provided the most structure and support for how rge their breasts had become. Josh felt like weight came off of his shoulders after putting it on and making sure the straps were well adjusted.

  Back to work.

  Josh returned to the vanity and pulled out the bck nail polish to cover up his pink nails. He wouldn’t be able to do much else while waiting for the polish to dry fully, so Josh praised himself for changing into the more comfortable bra beforehand. While he waited, Josh considered his bottoms again.

  It was undeniable that the shorts, hoodie, long socks combination was adorable. In fact, Josh was pretty good at looking adorable no matter what he wore. Zoe’s body was incredibly sexy. Memories of all the compliments she received for her beauty flowed through Josh’s mind. He remembered how warm and fuzzy his insides felt reading about all the men who wanted him.

  Which made him think about the man who had him.

  Gym Bro was obsessed with Zoe. She was the most beautiful thing in the world to him. All he wanted to do was make her happy. They could give him a big kiss when he got home. Then they could let him suck on their breasts and twist their nipples. Maybe they could even go all the way finally.

  Finally?

  No. That was exactly what they didn’t want. Right?

  Josh opened his eyes. When did he close them? Something felt tight in his shorts. He looked down. Fuck. Why did he have to have an erection now? How long had he been daydreaming? He tapped their phone. Ten minutes? He felt his penis twitch. This was bad.

  We can’t let Gym Bro see our erection.

  Josh nodded his head. That would be the absolute worst. He took some breaths and flexed his thighs. He’d heard that flexing his legs a bunch was supposed to help erections go away. Sure enough, his penis slowly defted.

  It would be terrible if it happened again ter.

  Josh stood up and stripped his shorts off. He grabbed his panties and re-tucked himself. There. Nice and ft again. He knew there was no chance of him popping a random, embarrassing erection during his conversation with Gym Bro now. No matter how aroused he might become. Josh felt something twinge in his head. Was the buzzing sound getting louder?

  It was Zoe’s body after all. It was only natural for a woman to become aroused around Gym Bro. He was an objectively attractive guy.

  Josh paused for a moment.

  He wiggled his fingers and toes. Things seemed okay. He was wearing the sexy push-up bra right now, but he would quickly change into the tight sports bra and hoodie before Gym Bro got home. He’d removed his makeup. He’d covered up his toenails with the socks and his fingernails with bck nail polish. He’d made certain their was no risk of a random erection thanks to the cute pair of tucking panties he put on.

  Josh smiled to himself. This would be good. He’d talk to Gym Bro about wanting to be treated like a guy again despite the craziness with the boobs and the fake dating. Then he’d be able to talk to Alice again. Maybe Alice would understand some of Josh’s predicament and help him with some of his debt.

  “Isn’t this a nice surprise.”

  Josh’s entire body froze at the sound of that familiar, deep voice.

  No, no, no, no, no.

  It was too soon. He needed more time.

  He managed to turn his body around. Josh looked at Gym Bro’s face.

  Gym Bro had that hungry look in his eyes.