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Part 5 — Predator Delusion

  Part

  5 — Predator Delusion

  The system hadn't

  warned him about this. Hadn't explained that human scents would

  register differently. That players—people with 99.7% genetic

  similarity—would produce a signature so intoxicating it bypassed

  conscious thought.

  
[Targeting

  Profile: Active]

  [High

  genetic similarity detected]

  [Hunger:

  Reactive]

  He swallowed

  slowly—his throat was dry, raspy—and inside the black holes of

  his mask, an intense golden glow ignited, mirroring the scent-trail

  of the player. The light pulsed in sync with his heartbeat, growing

  brighter with each throb.

  It's not... it's

  not a mob. It's a player. That's a person. That's a human being like

  me.

  The system said

  nothing. No alerts, no warnings, no ethical notifications. But the

  Hunger insisted, louder now, more insistent than it had ever been.

  A small throb in his

  left ear—poum.

  Then in the right—poum.

  Then in his ribs, in his belly, in his temples. A synchronized

  rhythm, louder and louder, faster and faster. The rhythm of Mirv's

  heart.

  Vincent clenched his

  teeth so hard he heard the wax of his jaw creak, a sound like old

  leather stretching past its limit. He took a step back, then another,

  trying to put distance between himself and that hypnotic scent.

  
[Risk

  of loss of control: 24%]

  [Proximity

  of compatible scent: High]

  [Genetic

  similarity: 99.7%]

  [Hunger:

  Reactive]

  [Control:

  Manual – Fragile]

  [Moral

  Inhibitors: Failing]

  No. No no no. I'm

  not doing this. That's a player. That's against the rules. That's...

  that's PvP. I didn't sign up for PvP. I'm not a griefer. I'm not...

  But the smell. Ho, the

  smell.

  Vincent took another

  step back. Then another. His legs felt heavy, resistant, like walking

  through mud. Every instinct in his body screamed at him to turn

  around, to move forward, to take what was being offered.

  Just leave. Just

  walk away. He's just another player. He's trying to survive, same as

  you. He's not food. He's not—

  The golden mist

  thickened, seemed to pulse with Mirv's heartbeat, and Vincent's own

  heart synchronized with it. Thump-thump.

  Thump-thump.

  A rhythm that bypassed thought and spoke directly to something

  deeper.

  
[Risk

  of loss of control: 32%]

  [Moral

  Inhibitors: Critical failure imminent]

  No. I can resist

  this. I have 65% Psyche. That's more than half. That means I'm still

  mostly human. That means I can make choices. That means—

  He took a step

  forward.

  Not deliberately. His

  body moved on its own, drawn by the scent like iron to a magnet. He

  stopped himself, claws digging into the bark of the tree he was

  hiding behind.

  Stop. Stop it.

  You're better than this. You're not a monster. You're just a guy

  playing a game. A guy trying to get paid. A guy who—

  Another step forward.

  Closer now. Close enough to hear Mirv humming, to see the way his

  fingers moved through the corpse's innards, to smell the living

  warmth radiating from his skin.

  Vincent's jaw ached.

  Not from clenching—from anticipation. His mask's mouth-hole

  stretched slightly, the edges widening, preparing.

  This is wrong.

  This is murder. Real murder. He'll die. Permanently. The game is

  full-dive VR, the pain is realistic, what if—

  
[Risk

  of loss of control: 41%]

  [Targeting

  lock: Acquiring]

  [Hunger:

  Dominant]

  He's just trying

  to survive. Just like you. He's probably got a family. A life. People

  waiting for him. He's not—

  Vincent's claws flexed

  involuntarily. His legs tensed, muscles coiling, preparing for a leap

  he wasn't consciously planning.

  Please. Please

  don't make me do this. I don't want to be this. I don't want to be a—

  
[Risk

  of loss of control: 53%]

  The golden trail

  pulsed brighter. Mirv shifted position, and a fresh wave of scent hit

  Vincent like a physical blow. He gasped, the sound rattling through

  his mask, and felt something inside him crack.

  Not break. Just...

  crack. A hairline fracture in whatever was left of his humanity.

  Maybe... maybe

  it's allowed? The system said "Authorization GRANTED" for

  the class. Maybe player-killing is part of the design. Maybe it's

  expected. Maybe I'm supposed to—

  
[Risk

  of loss of control: 61%]

  No. That's

  rationalization. That's your brain trying to justify—

  But the smell. The

  golden mist. The pulse of living blood. The Hunger that never, ever

  stopped.

  What if I just...

  what if I just get closer? Just to see? Just to confirm it's really a

  player? I don't have to do anything. I can still choose. I'm still in

  control. I'm still—

  
[Risk

  of loss of control: 68%]

  He took three more

  steps. The tree no longer hid him. He was in the open now, visible if

  Mirv turned around, but Vincent's body was already lowering into a

  crouch, already positioning itself for an optimal strike angle.

  Stop. STOP. This

  is the line. This is where it ends. If you do this, you can't go

  back. You can't undo it. You can't—

  The Hunger roared. Not

  a whisper anymore. Not a suggestion. A command. A biological

  imperative that drowned out thought, drowned out morality, drowned

  out everything except the golden trail and the promise of

  satisfaction.

  I don't want this.

  I don't want to be this. I don't—

  
[Risk

  of loss of control: 74%]

  [Manual

  control: Minimal]

  [Predatory

  instinct: Dominant]

  Vincent's breath came

  in short, rapid gasps. His vision narrowed, focusing on Mirv's neck,

  on the exposed skin, on the pulse visible beneath the surface. His

  claws extended fully, his legs coiled tighter.

  One more step and

  I'm leaving. One more step and I turn around and I never look back

  and I—

  He took one more step.

  And then another.

  And then the golden

  mist was all he could see, all he could smell, all he could think

  about.

  Please. Someone

  stop me. System, Agent, anyone. I can't—I don't want to—please—

  But nobody stopped

  him. The system observed in silence. The forest watched with patient

  indifference. And Vincent's Psyche—that number that had slowly

  ticked down from 100% to 65%—wasn't enough.

  It had never been

  enough.

  He growled. Not

  voluntarily. The sound rose from his throat on its own, hoarse and

  animalistic, scraping through the hollow space behind his mask like

  metal on stone.

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  Mirv turned around.

  — Oh, hey! — he

  exclaimed, his face lighting up with genuine relief. — Another

  player! Fuck, I thought I was alone here! This game is weird, right?

  Like... have you noticed the menus are completely bugged? I haven't

  found how to access the main inventory, and the system of— Hey,

  nice mask! Is that a cosmetic or did you unlock a class already? How

  did you—

  He didn't finish his

  sentence.

  Vincent had jumped.

  He didn't remember

  deciding. No thought, no deliberation, no conscious choice. One

  moment, he was behind the tree. The next, he was in the air, his

  white waxy body taut as a bow, arms outstretched, the black-clawed

  fingers reaching out like skeletal branches, the mask's mouth-hole

  stretching into a void that seemed to pull the light toward it.

  [Feral Leap]

  had triggered automatically, without command, without will. Just

  instinct. Just the Hunger.

  Mirv shrieked—a

  sharp, panicked cry that quickly turned into a gurgle. Not for long.

  The first bite

  shattered his shoulder, the jagged edges of the mask piercing the

  bone like stale bread. The second caught him at the throat and pinned

  him to the ground, cutting off the cry, cutting off the air, cutting

  off the life.

  Vincent felt the

  living blood explode in his mouth.

  Sweet. Warm. Dense.

  Like thick honey, like something precious and rare that should never

  be wasted. It flooded the darkness behind his mask, filled the void

  where his mouth used to be, and something inside him—something that

  had been screaming since the moment he spawned—finally went quiet.

  He moaned—a sound

  that was neither pleasure nor pain, but something caught exactly

  between the two. Something new. Something frightening.

  
[ !!!

  TRANSGRESSION DETECTED !!! ]

  [Target:

  Active player]

  [Authorization

  for Wìdjigò-Phase class: GRANTED]

  [Status:

  Normal progression]

  
[Psychic

  fragment absorbed: 18%]

  [Residual

  memories: 3]

  [Integration:

  In progress]

  He stopped abruptly,

  as if someone had just slapped him. Mouth full. Waxy white hands red

  up to the elbows, the blood stark against the pale surface, dripping

  from his black claws in thick rivulets. Breath ragged, whistling

  through the mask. Blood still flowed from the mask's mouth-slit,

  dripping onto the spongy ground which absorbed it greedily.

  Below him, Mirv was

  still rattling—a thread of a voice, weak, broken:

  — Fuck... are you

  serious... we're... why... blurgh...

  Vincent recoiled,

  hands shaking, his long waxy legs wobbling beneath him. He almost

  fell, catching himself just in time against a tree that shuddered at

  the touch.

  He had just tasted a

  player. He had bitten a player. And he had gained no life from it. No

  HP. No stat bonuses.

  Just relief.

  
[Hunger:

  Appeased]

  [Control:

  Restored]

  [Inhibitors:

  Rearmed]

  [Psyche:

  65% (-8%)]

  [Transformation

  Threshold: Stable progression]

  He looked at Mirv—the

  guy was going to die; it was obvious. Vincent had already torn away

  too much. The throat hung awkwardly, the shoulder was crushed, the

  blood formed a widening pool that steamed faintly in the grey light.

  But it wasn't a combat

  error. It wasn't an accident. It wasn't a bug, a poorly explained

  mechanic, or a misunderstanding. It was an act. Voluntary. Chosen.

  He attacked first.

  He... he made a sudden movement. I thought he was hostile. It was

  self-defense. That's... that's allowed in PvP. That's how these games

  work.

  Mirv had not attacked.

  Mirv had turned around and smiled.

  He would have

  killed me eventually. Players always turn on each other in survival

  games. I just got the first strike. That's smart. That's tactical.

  Mirv had been humming

  a pop song and trying to make conversation.

  It's just a game.

  He'll respawn. He's fine. No one actually dies. It's all simulated.

  The blood pooling

  beneath Mirv was very real. The light fading from his eyes was very

  real. The way his fingers twitched and then went still was very, very

  real.

  Vincent turned on his

  heel and fled.

  He ran for an

  hour—maybe more, hard to tell without sun, without a clock, without

  temporal landmarks. Not to flee enemies. Not to escape a threat. To

  flee the sensation of satisfaction.

  He wanted to be

  shocked. Horrified. Sickened. Traumatized. He wanted to vomit, cry,

  scream, collapse. That's what a normal human would have felt after

  killing someone. After eating someone.

  But he wasn't any of

  those things. He was sated. Calm. Almost content. And that was worse

  than everything else combined.

  It was necessary.

  It was survival. The game made me do it. The Hunger made me do it. I

  didn't have a choice.

  He'd had a choice.

  He'd simply made the wrong one.

  I'm still a good

  person. I'm not a monster. This is just... adaptation. Evolution.

  That's what the game wants. That's what gets you to level 100.

  He was not a good

  person. He was not adapting. He was devolving, step by step, bite by

  bite, into something that had forgotten what humanity felt like.

  He eventually stopped

  near a black pool, smooth as glass. Not to drink—the water here was

  never potable. To look at himself. To see what he had become.

  The reflection sent

  back a blurred, distorted, almost unrecognizable silhouette.

  More gaunt than

  before. More skeletal. The waxy white skin had become increasingly

  translucent, especially around the torso, and through it he could see

  his black heart pulsing with a slow, deliberate rhythm. Each beat

  sent ripples of darkness through the network of black veins that had

  spread from the heart and hands, reaching up his neck toward the mask

  and down into his lungs, his liver, his stomach—mapping his

  internal geography in obsidian lines.

  The mask, now his only

  face, was shifting. The three black holes—two for eyes, one for

  mouth—seemed to move slightly, drifting like fish in a bowl, never

  quite settling in the same position twice. It gave the disturbing

  impression that Vincent was constantly twisting his head at

  impossible angles, even when he stood perfectly still.

  His hands had changed

  further. The fingers had elongated even more, the black claws now

  permanently extended, curved like scythes, too long to ever be

  mistaken for human.

  He knelt slowly, put

  his hands in the water. The water recoiled. Not metaphorically.

  Literally. The black liquid pulled away from his white fingers as if

  something toxic repelled it, forming an empty circle around his palms

  that grew wider the deeper he pressed.

  He laughed. Softly at

  first, then a bit louder. A broken, fragile laugh on the edge of

  hysteria, rattling through the hollow space behind his mask.

  I look cool. I

  look like a raid boss. Like a secret boss you'd find in a hidden

  area. Players are going to see me and think I'm an NPC. That's

  actually sick. That's good design.

  He was lying to

  himself. Desperately. Pathetically.

  Then, like a guilty

  child confessing a mistake, like a lost child calling for help, he

  whispered:

  — I'm sorry, Mom.

  And he stayed there,

  for a long time, kneeling at the edge of the pool, listening to his

  stomach no longer clamoring, feeling the Hunger finally stilled,

  savoring this moment of peace he had paid for with someone else's

  humanity.

  The black heart

  visible through his translucent skin continued its slow, steady beat.

  Thump.

  Thump. Thump.

  The mask's three holes

  drifted slightly, tracking movement that wasn't there.

  The silence of the

  forest enveloped him, indifferent to his distress, indifferent to

  what he was becoming.

  And somewhere, in the

  depths of his slowly fragmenting psyche, a small voice whispered one

  last time:

  You exist, now.

  Vincent didn't

  respond. He just knelt there, staring at his impossible reflection,

  and told himself one more lie:

  I'm going to be

  okay. I'm going to make it to level 100. I'm going to get that money.

  And then everything will go back to normal.

  It wouldn't. Nothing

  would ever be normal again.

  The system logged the

  data. Stored the variables. Adjusted the parameters for what came

  next.

  [Session time

  remaining: 2 hours, 22 minutes]

  [Current

  Level: 4][Psyche:

  65%]

  [Transformation:

  2/10]

  [Class:

  Wìdjigò-Phase – Active][Player

  kills: 1]

  [Elite

  kills: 1][HP

  Stock: 87][Trait:

  Way of the Beast]

  [Physical

  Bonuses: x1.3]

  [Moral

  degradation: Accelerated]

  Vincent remained

  kneeling by the pool, watching the black veins pulse beneath

  translucent wax skin, watching the mask's holes drift and settle and

  drift again. His new abilities hummed quietly in the background—night

  vision piercing the gloom, olfaction painting the world in colored

  mist-trails, the skills from the Wolf waiting to be used.

  And in the back of his

  mind, beneath the satisfaction, beneath the horror, beneath the

  crumbling remnants of who he used to be, one thought crystallized

  with perfect, terrible clarity:

  I can't go back.

  Not to his room. Not

  to his mother. Not to the person he was six hours ago.

  That Vincent was gone.

  Eaten. Digested. Transformed into this thing of wax and hunger and

  golden-tracking malice.

  And it was only level

  4.

  The game had barely

  started.

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