home

search

21. The Cost of War

  Pain came first, stealing in before thought or waking had any say in the matter, as when flesh and bone have been driven far past the bounds that kindly nature once set for them. It didn't strike like a knife, nor leap upon her all at once with cruel suddenness. Instead it crept through Seralyth as a slow and abiding bruise, patient and thorough, settling itself into bone and sinew together, heavy and dull, an ache that spoke plainly of long strain, of labour and damage not yet set right.

  Her eyes opened only with reluctance, as though sleep itself had grown jealous and meant to hold her fast. Her lids felt thick and weighted, and when at last they parted, the light above her, though softened and carefully dimmed, pressed upon her sight all the same, forcing her to blink and turn her head away until the sting lessened.

  White walls met her gaze. Clean lines and smooth surfaces. There was a sharp, clean scent in the air, the tang of antiseptic, keen enough to cut through the fog that filled her thoughts, though not strong enough to banish it entirely.

  A medbay, then. How nostalgic.

  She drew in a cautious breath, testing her ribs as one might test cracked timber, and found them unwilling to give as they should. Something lay tight across her chest, wrapped with care but held firm all the same. Her arms felt far away, distant and untrustworthy, as though they belonged to another and had been lent to her only with reluctance.

  "Oh good. You're awake."

  The voice came from her left, light in tone and almost careless, though beneath it lay a careful edge of relief, hidden so neatly that only one listening closely would ever hear it.

  Seralyth didn't turn her head. She had no need to. The voice alone told her who was there.

  "Professor," she said, and her own voice sounded rough and thin, scraped raw by long disuse.

  Rynna leaned forward in the chair she'd claimed for herself, setting aside the tablet that had rested in her lap. The usual brightness that marked her was dimmed now, softened and dulled by something Seralyth couldn't at once name.

  Weariness, perhaps, or concern wearing the ill-fitting mask of ease.

  "Two weeks," Rynna said, giving answer to the question Seralyth hadn't yet spoken. "You've been out for two weeks. Welcome back to the land of the living."

  Two weeks.

  The realization settled upon her slowly, pressing down with the same steady persistence as the ache in her body. Fourteen days gone into darkness. Fourteen days in which the war hadn't waited, hadn't paused, hadn't granted her the courtesy of stillness.

  "Saeryn," Seralyth said at once, the name forced past her lips before any other thought could take hold.

  "Alive. Recovering. Injured, but stable." Rynna answered without pause, as though she'd expected the question all along and kept the reply ready. "The dragon's more resilient than it has any right to be, honestly. I've got the data if you want the full breakdown, but the short version is that Saeryn's fine."

  Seralyth closed her eyes for a moment, and relief passed through her like a long breath finally let free, leaving her at once lighter and heavier than before.

  Alive. That was enough. It had to be.

  When she opened her eyes again, there was sharpness in them, focus returning despite the lingering haze that clung to her thoughts.

  "The battle," she said. "What happened after we fell?"

  Rynna blinked, then gave a short laugh that held no true humor, sounding more like disbelief given voice.

  "Jeez. You just woke up from a two-week coma and that's what you want to know?" She shook her head, though beneath the exasperation there was something warmer, almost fond. "Fine. Sure. Let's skip right past 'how are you feeling' and go straight to tactical debriefs."

  She leaned back in her chair, folding her arms as she spoke, settling herself as one might before a long telling.

  "You won. Or rather, the Imperium won. The motherships you wounded couldn't maintain control cohesion. The sovereigns pressed the advantage and the entire Nemesis formation broke apart. They retreated beyond the outer system perimeter."

  Won.

  The word rested strangely in Seralyth's mind, incomplete and unsettled, as though it didn't quite fit the shape of what had been paid.

  "Casualties," she said, her voice lower now.

  Rynna's face changed, a guarded look settling over her features. She glanced down at the tablet in her hands, then back again, as though weighing how much truth to lay out and in what measure.

  "Heavy," she said at last. "Three outer holdings were lost before reinforcements could stabilize the perimeter. Ganymene Station, the refinery on Callith's secondary moon, and the habitat cluster near the trailing Lagrange point. Full evacuations weren't completed in time."

  She paused, then continued more softly. "Civilian losses are estimated in the thousands. Military losses across the fleet..." She made a small, helpless gesture with one hand. "Forty-three adult dragons confirmed killed in action. Another seventy-one injured severely enough to require extended recovery periods."

  Thousands.

  Forty-three.

  Seralyth let the numbers sit within her without trying to force them into shape. They were too large, too distant, heavy with meaning yet stripped of faces and names, leaving nothing she could hold close enough to mourn as it deserved.

  Each dragon had borne a pilot. Each had been bonded, resonant, whole. Now they were gone, broken and scattered in the grinding press of battle.

  She didn't allow guilt to take root. Not yet. There would be time enough for that later, when her thoughts were clearer and her body no longer demanded such effort merely to remain awake.

  It had been necessary. The opening had been necessary. The price had been paid, and brooding on it now wouldn't unmake what had already come to pass.

  "They held the line around us," she said. It wasn't a question.

  Rynna nodded once. "After you and Saeryn collapsed, the adult formations closed ranks. Nothing got through. They made absolutely sure of that."

  Others had died to keep her alive. That was the price of her act. That was the cost of the opening she'd carved.

  She would bear it, as she had borne all else.

  You could be reading stolen content. Head to the original site for the genuine story.

  "My condition," she said, turning the talk to matters closer at hand.

  "Oh, now you ask about yourself." Rynna's smirk returned, though it failed to reach her eyes. "Severe mana exhaustion. Complete implant burnout across all eight nodes. Neural overload that should've left you a vegetable, except that stability incantation you cast on yourself somehow kept your brain from melting."

  She tapped at her tablet, and shifting lights and runes of data flickered across its surface.

  "You're lucky to be alive. Extraordinarily lucky. Also extraordinarily reckless, but we've been over that before." Her tone grew more sober as she went on. "Your implants are offline. They'll need full recalibration before you can cast again. That's going to take time."

  "How long?"

  "Weeks. Maybe a month, depending on how your recovery goes." Rynna met her gaze squarely. "And before you ask, no, you can't speed it up by pushing yourself. Your body needs to heal. Properly."

  Seralyth said nothing, though her jaw tightened a little. A month without implants. A month unable to cast. A month while the war went on without her hand upon it.

  Unacceptable.

  But unavoidable.

  "I need to see Saeryn," she said.

  "Yeah, I figured you'd say that." Rynna rose to her feet, stretching her arms overhead until there was an audible crack. "Not today, though. You can barely keep your eyes open. Give it another day or two, let yourself actually recover a bit, and then we'll get you mobile."

  Seralyth felt the urge to argue rise within her, to insist, to force herself upright and walk to wherever Saeryn was kept, heedless of what her body might say.

  But the weariness was already returning, heavy and insistent. Her eyelids dragged. Her thoughts began to fray at their edges.

  "Fine," she said at last, the word given grudgingly. "But soon."

  "Soon," Rynna agreed. "Now go back to sleep before you pass out mid-sentence. Doctor's orders."

  Seralyth let her eyes close, yielding at last to the exhaustion that had waited patiently for her resistance to fail.

  Tomorrow, then. Or the day after.

  Soon enough, she would look upon the cost of their victory with her own eyes, and know fully what had been paid.

  ???

  Recovery proved a slow and grinding business, and it wasn't reckoned in medals won or songs earned, but in small humiliations met and endured one by one, as a traveller counts stones beneath weary feet rather than miles upon a map.

  At first, she couldn't sit upright without another's hand steadying her back and shoulders. Then, after some days had passed, she found she could sit, yet couldn't stand without her legs quivering treacherously beneath her, as though they no longer remembered the weight they were made to bear.

  Later still, she managed to stand and even take a few steps, but no more than that, for exhaustion soon seized her and dragged her back down, heavy and inexorable.

  The medical staff attended her throughout with careful, practised efficiency. They checked her vital signs with methodical regularity, adjusted her medications in precise measures, and spoke in low, measured voices of acceptable thresholds and projected recovery timelines, as scholars might discuss margins of error or tolerances in a delicate experiment.

  They treated her with a cautious deference, the sort reserved for those who are at once precious and breakable, to be preserved rather than hurried.

  She endured it all because there was no other course open to her.

  Days lost their sharp edges and blurred together, each one a near mirror of the last. Wake. Eat. Submit to an examination. Attempt movement. Fail. Rest. Begin again.

  The rhythm became so familiar that time itself seemed to dull, as though the hours were worn smooth by repetition.

  Through all of it, the bond with Saeryn remained. It didn't vanish or falter, but lay steady and constant, a fine thread stretched between them across distance and stone.

  It wasn't enough. She needed to see Saeryn. She needed the certainty that only her own eyes could give, to know beyond doubt that the dragon was whole.

  But her body wouldn't obey her will, and so she waited, and hated every lingering moment of that enforced patience.

  Not until the close of the fourth week was she finally judged fit enough to leave the medical wing.

  By then she could walk without assistance, though her steps were slower than they'd once been and taken with greater care, as if each footfall were weighed before being trusted. Her implants remained offline, dead and unresponsive, lying beneath her skin like inert stones.

  The medical staff assured her, calmly and confidently, that recalibration would begin soon, once her neural pathways had stabilised completely and without deviation.

  She didn't ask how long that might take. She didn't wish to hear the answer.

  Instead, she turned her steps toward the exterior platforms, where the dragons were housed when not deployed beyond the institute's walls.

  The corridors she passed through felt at once familiar and strange, as though she were walking them for the first time, despite having traversed them countless times before. The damage left by the battle had been repaired with impressive speed and skill, yet traces of it still remained for those who knew how to look.

  Scorch marks darkened certain stretches of wall. Replacement panels sat slightly askew, their colour or texture not quite matching what surrounded them. The faint scent of welding compound and fresh sealant lingered in the air, sharp and metallic.

  No one stopped her as she went. A few staff members inclined their heads to her in acknowledgment, their expressions carefully composed and unreadable.

  Whether they knew of her actions during the battle, or merely recognized her as a scion of the imperial line, she couldn't tell.

  It made no difference.

  With every step toward the platforms, the bond grew stronger. The fog within it thinned, little by little, until each metre crossed seemed to bring clarity.

  By the time she stepped out beneath the open sky, Saeryn's presence was once more unmistakable, bright and fierce, vivid as a flame, and undeniably alive.

  The dragon lay coiled near the far edge of the platform, its immense form at rest but not sunk into sleep. Fresh scars marked its scales, pale lines tracing paths across surfaces that had once been smooth and unblemished.

  One wing was partly furled and held at an awkward angle, speaking plainly of lingering pain or stiffness.

  Yet it was whole. It was alive. It was there.

  At the sight of it, something tight within Seralyth's chest loosened, as if a clenched hand had finally released its grip.

  She crossed the platform slowly, each careful step bringing her nearer, until at last she stood beside Saeryn's great head. One vast, luminous eye opened and fixed upon her, its gaze holding a depth and intensity that required no spoken words.

  'You're well,' Seralyth sent along the bond, and the relief carried in that thought was bare and unshielded.

  Warmth surged back to her at once, swift and overwhelming, threaded with concern and with something sharper beneath. Saeryn had worried. More than worried.

  The separation had weighed heavily upon the dragon as well, gnawing and persistent.

  Seralyth reached out and laid her hand against the dragon's scales, feeling the living heat that radiated from within. For a long while neither of them moved.

  They were content simply to stand together again, sharing presence and breath and bond.

  Then she sensed it.

  A change within the bond, subtle yet impossible to miss. The resonance between them had shifted. It wasn't diminished, but altered, deepened, carrying new harmonics that hadn't been there before.

  She frowned and let her awareness sink more fully into the connection, examining it with the care of one who knows an instrument well enough to notice when even a single string has been retuned.

  There.

  Saeryn's presence felt larger. Not merely in the sense of physical bulk, though that too played its part, but in weight and substance, in the density of awareness and intent that flowed steadily through the bond.

  It was as if the dragon had grown beyond expected bounds, expanding into spaces that should have taken years to fill.

  Her eyes widened a fraction as understanding dawned.

  She looked at Saeryn again, truly looked this time, and saw what her earlier relief had caused her to overlook. The proportions were subtly wrong. The body had lengthened. The wings were broader.

  The musculature was thicker and more powerful.

  These weren't the changes of ordinary growth. They were too pronounced, too swift, pressed into the narrow span of weeks rather than unfolding across months or years.

  Through the bond, she felt something more. A restlessness that hadn't been present before. An urge, deep and instinctive, pulsing through Saeryn's awareness like a second heart.

  It wished to fight.

  Not from anger or blind aggression, but from something older and more fundamental. The desire rose from the dragon's very core, woven into its being at a depth far below conscious thought.

  It was biological. It was ancestral.

  It was implanted.

  The First Bond had left its trace not only in memory and legend, but in the flesh and spirit of every dragon that followed. And Saeryn, driven to the edge and surviving, was answering that ancient command in ways neither of them had foreseen.

  Seralyth withdrew her hand slowly, her thoughts already turning, measuring and weighing the implications.

  This wasn't natural growth. It was acceleration, born of battle trauma and the extreme conditions they'd endured together.

  Rynna would need to be told. The institute would demand study and documentation. The Imperium wouldn't remain silent.

  But for the moment, standing beside her bonded companion beneath the pale light filtered through Caeloryn's atmospheric barrier, Seralyth allowed herself to feel gratitude.

  They had survived.

  Whatever lay ahead, they would meet it side by side.

  As they always had.

Recommended Popular Novels