I didn't know how it happened, but I did it without thinking.

  Leona is standing against the wall where the bed is pced and is looking at me.

  I sat in her p, leaned in and kissed her, I don't know how I looked back then, but I bet it was awful and pitiful at the same time.

  "I am sorry…" - After a long pause, Leona looked down and kissed my forehead.

  "You have nothing to be sorry for"- Leona y on the bed again, and I cradled myself next to her with my arms wrapped around her.

  The next day, I woke up to find myself alone. On the table in the room, there was some tea, bread, jam, butter, and biscuits.

  The note reads, ^I headed out to grab some stuff and make something to eat. I will come back ter^

  I waited for Leona for a while. I decided to try cooking something for myself with the little we had in the house at that time. I didn't even know how to cook well. I just made some eggs with some pre-processed meat that I had lying around. I didn't know if I fried it that well, but it was worth a shot.

  After my attempt at cooking the food and burning myself with the oil a few times, I decided to close the gas stove and wait for Leona. I don't know if what I did was good, but now I just have to wait for her.

  After about five more minutes of waiting, Leona enters through the front door of the house. She has two full grocery bags in her hands.

  "Hey there, I hope you didn't burn the house down while cooking." My big sister looked at where I had cooked and the mess I had left behind.

  "I am sorry." I forgot to clean the mess that I made while cooking.

  "Don't worry. I will clean it up. Watch me how I do it to learn." She pced down her two grocery bags, walked to one of the kitchen cabinets, and grabbed some cleaning supplies.

  She wiped down the gas stove and the counters with one solution.

  I watched how she cleaned everything until it was spotless.

  "Next time, you clean it." She put back the cleaning supplies and then proceeded to cook something else for me.

  "Why are you cooking suddenly?" - I had already made food for myself.

  "Well, that won't really keep you fed, will it? I will teach you how to cook while you are here with me, but for now, sit down and rest" – Leona carried me to the bedroom.

  "Are you sure about this?" - Leona didn't flinch or show any hesitation in her decisions.

  "Yes, I am sure. Just rest for now. You have been through a lot." I slowly drifted to sleep and woke up a few hours ter.

  Food was already on the table, and Leona was waiting for me to eat.

  "Don't forget, we are going for a walk afterwards." She sat down and ate with me. I don't know what to do now. I was never treated like this when I was at home with my father and other family members. All of my other siblings have shunned me for not being full-blood-reted to them. Regardless of that fact, Leona is the only one who took me in.

  After eating, I rose from the chair, walked behind my big sister and hugged her.

  "Big sis, thank you for everything" – Leona stopped what she was doing, turned around and returned my hug.

  "Don't worry about it."

  This day passed, and then the next one, and the next one after that; I thought this could st forever, but, no, things weren't like that; when Leona's mom remarried, I heard that she was going to be sent from Japan, away from me. During this time, these years that we spent together, we developed a special sort of retionship, and it's not that kind of familial love I feel towards Leona; it's the I want to be your girlfriend type of love, but I never dared to tell her that, I know it's wrong, but I can't help myself. Every time she kissed my forehead and held me, it made me love her even more than I already did.

  But thinking about all of that now, she didn't really reciprocate my feelings that much, or maybe she also thinks in the same way I do; I can't know, but these feelings, I want to hide them, kill them, bury them. I want them to die and remain in the depths of my mind; I would never have the courage to tell her that upfront.

  On that fated day, when she took her flight to Japan, I gave my older sister one st hug. I wanted to kiss her right then and there, but I couldn't. I didn't have the courage to do anything, and there were a lot of people around us as well.

  "I hope I can get to see you again." I tried to keep my composure throughout the goodbye.

  "Don't worry. I am sure we will see each other again soon." I need to go with her to Japan, but I don't know how. She got sent there for being a troublemaker and having problems with the w here, but…. I don't know what to say anymore. My feelings were going haywire, and when I went back into that empty house, only to find no one, I started to cry and cried myself to sleep on the couch.

  From then on, someone else started to take care of me. I am sorry, but I had to be a troublemaker in order to get sent to Japan with my sister. I started by petty theft and then beating up people who bullied me, and soon enough, in a few years, I was also sent there with her. After spending some time in behavioural correction institutions, Leona's new dad decided to send me there with her.

  "Why do you keep getting into trouble?" - His voice boomed from the other side of the phone.

  "I want to be with my big sister, I know why she got sent there. I want to be near her, I told you multiple times but you didn't listen" – I hissed back.

  "Fine, see how you like it there!" - He closed the call.

  And then, I think you know the rest of the story.